remember my Christmas meltdown?
I said a few things and he said he wasn't going to put up with that and I said I'm sorry can you please just hold me I haven't gotten any sleep and I'm cramping and I just need you to be supportive and he said BUT I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE RIGHT NOW and I said THIS IS THE WORST CHRISTMAS EVER
or when I quit my job?
And the worst part of it was the mom had offered me a chocolate from her Valentines Russell Stover's right before the tears started, so as I'm crying I'm taking tiny bites of my truffle. I didn't even get to savor it.
the prayers God answered?
This time last year I had very few friends in town who had time to spend w/ me, I was discontent and frustrated with our home and we were going to a church that we liked but we weren't meeting people and had little desire to get involved.
the first time I opened up about my weight gain?
I hated not being able to hide it. For a long time I refused to buy new clothes because I didn't want to be accepting a body that I didn't want.
when I threw my first party?
Somehow I managed to get the whole house sparkling (minus our bedroom) and prepare for the party in barely a day's time. AND I didn't cough or blow my nose once during the party.
when my husband told me that I suck?
-- I'm not giving you a teaser for this one. You'll just have to read it. --
when I shared 93 things about myself?
dust, semi-trucks, High Fructose Corn Syrup
when I thought Andy would be disappointed in me?
I was extremely distraught over the phone and had it in my head that Andy was more concerned with me making money than with me caring for him, the home and others.
thanks for reading, friends (and family). you bless me.
|me- December 2009, when I started this blog|
(not at my heaviest, but getting there)
|me - June 2011|