two pounds

I am sitting here furiously eating a bowl of salad. I've never been this excited to see lettuce in my life. It's 9:30 p.m. and I haven't eaten anything since 3. This is bad, because even though I'm starting off with a bowl of salad, my tummy isn't full and it's saying "just eat more croutons. and a bag of those sun chips you bought for the beach. and some peppermint patties."

yikes.

I was TWO pounds away from my goal weight, and then Chinese happened. And pizza. And Klines. And IHOP (blast my husband and his endless pancakes craving). Plus, I haven't been doing so hot keeping up with p90x. Now I'm four and a half pounds away from my goal. :-/

With our beach trip coming up this Saturday, I would love to see those two and a half pounds fall off. I'd loooove to see the numbers on the scale decrease. I think being back to my old sizes and wearing clothes I haven't been able to wear in a long time have made me feel that I can excuse giving in to my food urges. I have to keep reminding myself that while it is OK to enjoy naughty food now and then, my body will respond better to nutrition and exercise. It's so hard. I love me some chips and chocolate and onion rings and... I should stop.

This week it's fruit, veggies, tuna, chicken and nuts... not tons of toast and chocolate covered fiber bars. It's going to be tough. I know I'm probably eating out with my coworkers one day, so that will be my "free pass" meal. I have a rule at work that I only eat out once every other week. I would probably have gained back all the weight I've lost if I didn't have this rule. I pack my lunch, and I've only visited the snack machine three times since I've started working in February.

If you have some lunch suggestions, please pass them along. I need something easy to put together and something that won't make a mess at my desk.

now I'm off in search of something to eat...