three years

I wanted to reach but the dreams were so far away

I wanted to speak but the words were so hard to say

You didn’t know where my heart had been

There wasn’t a time or a moment when I could or we could be open

I needed a reason to speak but I couldn’t find it

I knew that it wouldn’t last forever

(**not referring to relationship, referring to inability  to speak**)

I wanted to blink but I thought I might miss a minute or a memory

I wanted to write but I couldn’t contain it on a list of a thousand and rising

You didn’t know where my heart had been

There wasn’t a time or a moment when I could or we could be open

I needed a reason to speak but I couldn’t find it

I knew that it wouldn’t last

You were more than enough for my best

The one that I was dreaming of

‘cuz you were an ocean apart from the rest, yeah

you were more than I could ever guess

the prayer that only God can give

‘cuz you were an ocean apart from the best I’d ever seen,

the rest that’s ever been shown me, a lesson in being

‘cuz you are an ocean apart

< at Heathrow seeing each other after six weeks of separation >

I wanted to wish but I couldn’t believe it

The way that it seemed there was no way

I wanted to be strong but I couldn’t control it

My emotions inside wanted to run away

You didn’t know where my heart had been

There wasn’t a time or a moment when I could or we could be open

I needed a reason to speak but I couldn’t find it

I knew that it wouldn’t last

You were more than enough for my best

The one that I was dreaming of

‘cuz you were an ocean apart from the rest, yeah

you were more than I could ever guess

the prayer that only God can give

‘cuz you were an ocean apart from the best I’d ever seen, 

the rest that’s ever been shown me, a lesson in being

‘cuz you are an ocean apart

Andrew Scott Rennie,

You truly are more than I could have ever guessed.

You melt me, you move me, you challenge me, you teach me, you lead me, you love me.

happy three years, baby!